I survived. The first Thanksgiving, our 25th anniversary, Christmas eve and Christmas day without you. I survived. Barely. After I spent the 1st 3 weeks of December knitting 7 hat and scarves for our great nieces and nephews. I finished Addi's Afghan. I baked cookies, breads and made candy for all their stockings. I made the fudge I would never let you have. I kept myself very busy doing all the normal things I would do at Christmas. I survived. But I slept our anniversary away. I slept thru Christmas eve and Christmas day. Someone woke me long enough to watch the kids open gifts and I retreated to my room to forget it was all happening without you in your chair. I tried baby. Now new years eve is upon us. I don't want to start a new year without you. How can I? .....
Looking back on the memory of The dance we shared beneath the stars above For a moment all the world was right How could I have known you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain But I'd have to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything For a moment wasn't I the king But if I'd only known how the king would fall Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know The way it all would end the way it all would go Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain But I'd of had to miss the dance Yes my life is better left to chance I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance