My shoes are not where I left them. I glance frantically around. I want to search for them, but there is no time. I run downstairs quickly. Shannon is there waiting. "We must hurry," she says.
She closes the door as I begin heading across the dark green grass. The sun is still down. My heart beat accelerates. I can smell the night air. It enters quickly and escapes slowly. It is thick and wet.
The sky is dark, but the trees are still visible. Their silhouettes sway as the wind blows wildly causing leaves to fall here and there. I can feel them underneath my bare feet, softening the ground as they thicken. I hold my chest to keep from freezing. I can feel my toes grow colder but I stare at the ground and keep walking. I don't have time to warm them right now. The trees disappear as we approach them.
"I have everything we need." Shannon tells me as we enter the forest. I worry as the forest thickens and the trail seems to disappear, but Shannon takes the lead, showing me the way. Her light brown hair appears black in the darkness and smells like her house, like the last meal we shared. The sun is nowhere to be seen.
As we enter the clearing, and move down the hill, she stops halfway and immediately puts down the blanket. She carefully angles it toward the horizon. I take in the view. Even though it is dark, I can see how I have forgotten how perfect it is here. I have forgotten the landscape's soft, charismatic beauty, and I am ashamed.
The cliff puts off just feet away from me. The valley below is green with nature. The cliff is in the form of a horse shoe, a large 'U' around the ocean of grass inside. A couple of trees have sprouted where careless birds have flown over it, but they seem to have grown in just the right place. I cannot pick out any accidents.
The grass grows a lighter green as it stretches on for miles towards the horizon. The clouds are brightening at the furthest point of my view. I step closer to the edge of the cliff. The wind whips at my night dress. I clutch myself tighter and step again. I want to see the colors of the rocks that make up this cliff. It has been years since they have stunned my eyes.
It hurts at first, but then thrills me. The colors are a different shade, because of the early hour, and they are as beautiful as ever. I stare at the granite and quartz. The granite is the main foundation. The quartz jumps out at sharp angles in random places where the sun's rays catch it.
My eyes dance across the rocks, moving faster and faster. I concentrate on the beauty. I hear nothing. My entire being revolves around this piece of earth. I cannot look away. The sun rises. I stare. I take a breath. New morning air fills my lungs. It seeps through my body, calming my mind, soothing my thoughts.
Shannon calls to me, and I join her on the blanket.
This is pretty sad but I feel that it actually promotes suicide more than telling you a sad story. Don't believe me? Read it yourself:
boy- i missed u at school 2day, y weren't u there? girl- yeah, i had to go to the doctor. boy- oh realy? y? girl- oh nothin, annual shots, thats all. boy- oh girl- so wht did we do in math 2day? boy- u didnt miss ne thing that great.......just lots of notes girl- ok good boy- yeah girl- hey i have a question...... boy- ok, ask away girl-........how much do u love me? boy- u kno i love u more than anything girl- yeah..... boy- y did u ask? girl-................>silence<.......... boy- is something wrong? girl- no nothing at all boy- good. girl- ..............how much do u care about me? boy- i would give u the world in a heartbeat if i could. girl- u would? boy- yeah.........of course i would >sounding worried< is there something wrong?? girl- no, everythings fine...... boy- are u sure? girl- yeah. boy- ok.......i hope so. girl- ..............would u die for me? boy- i would take a bullet for u anyday, hun girl- realy? boy- anyday. now seriously, is there something wrong??? girl- no im fine, ur fine, we're fine, everyones fine. boy- ............ok girl......................well i have to go ill c u 2morrow at school. boy- alright, bye. I LOVE YOU. girl- yeah, i love u 2, bye. THAT NIGHT: -ring- -ring- -ring- girl- hello? boy- hey girl- oh, hi. boy- y weren't u at school 2day? girl- uh.......i had another doctor appointment. boy- are u sick? girl- ..................um i have 2 go, my mom's callin on my other line. boy- ill wait. girl- it may take a while, ill call u later. boy-........alright, i love u hun. very long pause< girl- (with tear in her eye) look, i think we should break up. boy- what??? girl- its the best thing for us right now. boy- y???? girl- i love u. click< THE GIRL DOESNT COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS, AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE. boy- hey dude friend- hey boy- whats up friend- nothin, hey have u talked 2 ur ex lately? boy- no friend- so u didnt hear? boy- hear what? friend- um idk if i should be the one to tell u...... boy- dude, tell me friend- uh....call this number....433-555-3468 boy- ok............ BOY CALLS NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL -ring- -ring- -ring- voice- hello, suppam county hospital, this is nurse beckam. boy- uh.......i must have the wrong number, im looking for my friend. voice- what is her name, sir? (boy gives info) voice- yes, this is the right number, she is one of our patients here. boy- rele? y? what happened??? how is she??? voice- her room number is ..646, in building A, suite 3. boy- WHT HAPPENED??!!!! voice- plz come by sir and you can see her, goodbye. boy- WAIT! NO! *dial tone* BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM ..646, BUILDING A, SUITE 3. GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED. boy- omg are u ok?? girl- .................. boy- sweetie!! talk to me!! girl- i.......... boy- u what?? U WHAT??? girl- i have cancer and im on life support boy- .....................>breaks into tears<...................... girl- they're taking me off 2night boy- y?? girl- i wanted 2 tell u but i couldnt boy- y didnt u tell me???? girl- i didnt want 2 hurt u. boy- u could never hurt me girl- i just wanted 2 c if u felt bout me as the same i felt bout u. boy- ? girl- i love u more than anything, i would give u the world in a heartbeat. i would die for you and take a bullet for you. boy- ........... girl- dont be sad, i love u n ill always be here w/u boy- then y'd u break up w/me? nurse- young man, visiting hours are over. BOY LEAVES, GIRL IS TAKEN OFF LIFE SUPPORT, AND DIES. but wht the boy didn't kno is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time, and she only broke up w/him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks to live, and thought it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died. NEXT DAY the boy is found dead with a gun in his hand..with a note in the other... THE NOTE SAID:i told her i would take a bullet for her....just like she said she would die for me... Copy and paste this if you cryed at this story..If u dont u dont have a heart..
