HELL BLOG #3: IM STUPID NOW (as if i haven't been)
7 years, 4 months & 21 days ago
20th Mar 2018 17:52 i swear. i've been getting dumber lately
i can't even concentrate on stuff anymore... and i can never think of the right words for things? that's one of my biggest problems... i stumble over words like, all the time and it sux and idk why
and i just. cant concentrate when im doing stuff. schoolwork? more like, do like 3 things and take forever to do them ngngnhhghghu
i read online that these were symptoms of depression but. i already have gotdam depression and my weird rocks-for-brains feeling has only been here for like, a month
this was on the RC but it was getting really long so i decided to make a blog post to expand on this stupid issue i have with my IDIOT BRAIN HEAD
because. i _do_ have a dumb brain thing that generally makes it hard for me 2 Actually Do Things (blah blah blah executive dysfunction) but i swear it's been worse lately
then again. i haven't been sleeping well at all (i slept 2 hours last night an the night before) and i guess i've been eating garbage too...
i mean. hell, this might not even be a 'real' issue for me, maybe i just only recently noticed how dumb i am? haha
happy valentines day im having a mental breakdown
7 years, 5 months & 24 days ago
14th Feb 2018 23:14 ahhhhhhh im dyin!
- 2days horrible emotions -
have u ever felt like yr life was kind of more of a messed up dream
like.. u kno those feelings you get in nightmares where its like "will it be like this forever?"
but like.. in the waking world
god earlier i forgot it was still today (well not rly... but in the same continuous time space) and i was like "OH GOD i forgot to turn in this paper i had to turn in!!" and i checked my backpack and i remembered . i just put it in my backpack
and i just. kind of was like
*tv static*
aka:
AAAHHFHHFNG this WEEK and PAST WEEK and the ONE BEFORE IT have all been CONSISTENTLY TERRIBLE AND I HATE ALL OF THEM i've been feeling weird and upset and anxious i've got all this schoolwork to do and i don't have the time to do it!!! and all this.. paperwork... stuff.... that i also have 2 do which all has to do with stuff for next year... ahhh and i still havent taken any big cool tests yet bc idk how to sign up! damn im stuped
valentines 2018
7 years, 5 months & 26 days ago
12th Feb 2018 15:59 [★ means i had one but its been used]
CANDY TREE
[★] Broken Heart Pearl
[X] Broken Heart Skirt
[] Charming Heart
[] Chocolate Bouquet
[] Dark Cupid Bow
[★] Loser Tank Top
[x] Love Trumpet
[★] Loveless Corset
[X] Meh Candy Heart
[] Romantic Sunset
[★] Songs of Love
[] Sweet Hair Buns
[] Valentine Azul Ears
[★] Valentine Bouquet
HEART HUNT
Chocolate Heart Sandwich[x]
Cupid Heart[X]
Frilly Top[x]
Giant Bear[★]
Healing Heart[★]
Heart Cheesecake[X]
Heart Sweater[★]
Lace Veil[★]
Love Harp [X]
Love Stamp[★]
Melting Heart Candle[x]
Pride Shirt [★]
Rose Crown []
Rose in Mouth [X]
Secret Crush Contact Lenses[★]
Thank You Note[x]
Timber Boots[]
