There's moments in life were u just need to be strog, some time's u dont even understand why, but u just know that u have to be strong, maybe not for u , but if not for everybody el's that's around u, and u know that u have to give ur all to help no matter if u cant but u'll try. For me that moment came cause when u see a person that u love laying in a bed right in front of u and u know that u would do anything to help him but u cant that's when u learn to love life, but in that moment what can u do, the list is short, but what CAN'T u do, that list is infinite, when u know that that person may not be there tomorrow or that that day may be his last u dont know what to do u want to apologize for something that u did not cause but for some reason u feel responsible for what happend, or at least u wish u were. U ask ur self "why him?, why not me?" out of the nowhere all this questions apear and none of them have the answear's that u need so much. Those moments in life come and go but u never ever forget the feelings u felt u'll never forget the image that wondered in ur mind night and night taking away ur sleep and ur selfp respect those moments in life are treasure though u clearly remember the pity that u felt u lern from it and on u go in ur life and so much can happen even 50 years can pass but u will never ever forget it it will always be as clear as the moment it happend and well u might have already passed through taht moment in ur life or maybe u haven't but when u do remember my story and every word i wrote and well till then this is a goodbye
Every day that passes since you left, i realize how much i really needed u, u were a part of my life by then&there wasn't anything that could change it. By that time i knew that i needed u to live,to be happy, to be able to sleep at night, though i tryed to deny it, i always knew that i needed you, i know that once i wanted u to go, but i guess i needed to pass through all this to realize how much u really mean to me, I dont want to forgive my self, because i always knew that this would happen, but i dont know what i was thinking, well i think i was thinking that, that i didn't need u but i do, that if u left it wouldn???t afect me but it did but i didn't know that befor, though i just needed ur friendship u needed more from me, something that i just couldn't give u, my love, and i'm truely happy that i didn't because look what u've done to me now, i wonder were u are now, how u are, are u even alive a wonder. At night i wonder in my dreams trying to remember ur face, trying to find u, trying to find ur soul trying to be with u like the great friends we were. If death has found u yet, i pray for ur soul so u go to heaven were u belong cause it's not ur falt what ur parents did or what ever the people around u did, u were good and nothing changed that, ur mmemory is clean, it's pure, it's u. and till the day i find u again i will wait and wait and pry. lobeu.
How can I trust someone if that someone has broken my trust, My heart is empty, Its cold as ice, As it reach to break, It leaks out of water, That water drips and slips away, That trust, That moment, All within those you have broken, I may not trust you or your friends but that don???t mean we can???t be friends, You have to make me understand why should I ever trust you again, You have to repair that broken trust, You have to work hard, That don???t mean be hateful towards me, Just show me that I can trust you once more.
Melanie is always deep in love, Even more so when she is alone. Love of God is like a quiet lake, A heart within her heart no heart can break, Nor passion, pain, nor solitude remove. In her is beauty of which all partake, Easy as breath, dependable as stone.
