Every day that passes since you left, i realize how much i really needed u, u were a part of my life by then&there wasn't anything that could change it. By that time i knew that i needed u to live,to be happy, to be able to sleep at night, though i tryed to deny it, i always knew that i needed you, i know that once i wanted u to go, but i guess i needed to pass through all this to realize how much u really mean to me, I dont want to forgive my self, because i always knew that this would happen, but i dont know what i was thinking, well i think i was thinking that, that i didn't need u but i do, that if u left it wouldn???t afect me but it did but i didn't know that befor, though i just needed ur friendship u needed more from me, something that i just couldn't give u, my love, and i'm truely happy that i didn't because look what u've done to me now, i wonder were u are now, how u are, are u even alive a wonder. At night i wonder in my dreams trying to remember ur face, trying to find u, trying to find ur soul trying to be with u like the great friends we were. If death has found u yet, i pray for ur soul so u go to heaven were u belong cause it's not ur falt what ur parents did or what ever the people around u did, u were good and nothing changed that, ur mmemory is clean, it's pure, it's u. and till the day i find u again i will wait and wait and pry. lobeu.
17 years, 6 months & 15 days ago
